/r9k/ - robot9000

>>4392
we're in here together

>>4253
>>4258
Lol. This is almost a mirror of my state of mind ~3 years ago. The internet and imageboards truly fried my brain. I started lurking at the age of 17 and discovered 4cuck r9k and "blackpills". it all went downhill from there.
With the scamdemic I got completely overwhelmed by this feeling that I couldn't trust anyone and, while to a degree was objectively true, with my completely warped state of mind it almost developed into a full blown psychosis.
Gladly It's gotten better since then.
I practiced positive thinking and I give every normalnigger the benefit of the doubt and made some aquantances that you could almost call "friends". Something I didn't have since graduating high school 6 years ago.

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>>4740
I've been a quasi-shutin for over a decade, older than you and starting younger than you though not with imageboards as my sole socialization on the internet, only leaving the house for school and the occasional job. I've ignored my feelings of pessimism and loneliness because of optimism and attempt at strength even if faux in a period when I should've explored those feelings, where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.

>>4741
>where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. 
Accepting ones own ineptitude is the first step to betterment. How long did I wallow in my false sense of superiority without making any progress? I wasted so many oppertunities, so much time! But wallowing in past regrets is no good either.
Honestly, in the end, no matter how depraved my adolescence has been, I think it was worth the ride.
I made a very good internet friend in the process and am already making plans of traveling to moscow by car next year. For the first time in many years I have things to look forward to again.
>I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.
Took me long enough to figure that out. All this time I didn't even know who I was. I was just an almagation of post post post ironic internet tropes.

I hope you find your purpose too, anon.
Pessimism is never the answer, blind optimism neither. I think one has to find a healthy balance between the two. Maybe just call it realism.

>>4742
I don't regret anything about my childhood despite how mediocre it was, it was a journey to understanding the truth and believing the voices in my head and feelings in my gut to where I got as a teen. But I've gotten some nigh irreversible health issues because of what I went through as a teen, so if it gets to that point then something is clearly wrong and you're just accepting the facts and lessons of life at that point. Is that even an uncommon feeling?

I still feel like a child, for me no amount of driving and maintaining internet friendships will fix that for me. I don't know what feeling good and finding meaning is. This is the loneliest and most hopeless I've ever been. I want to warn younger people about how little my struggles in coming of age mattered, and how they can cripple you, and what I thought I really wanted.

Sorry if this is too sappy or heavy-handed.

>>4629
odd disorder

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This posted on 8chan's in 2018, obscure artist.

To understand women one must understand men.
Here's a little secret that will make most normalflags chimp out. Mostly because, rightly so, it files them in the same box as faggots and other degenerates.
It is a truth as old as mammalian reproduction and has only recently come into question within the context of birth control, prophylactics, and rampant abortion: sex is and always as been for making babies.
Views of sexual intercourse in the west have shifted toward being primarily a form of mutual masturbation first with procreation being some antiquated side-effect that happens to those who don't take proper precautions.
The reason men are driven to fuck is because of being programmed with the urge to procreate. It is a desire of life that is greater than the individual. This is obvious. Yet people delude themselves. They latch onto fruitless fetishes which are never satisfied as their seed is wasted.
Sex is not neant to end with busting a nut. This is meant to be the beginning. A man is meant to move beyond this to a new stage of life. The day a man becomes a father is the day he begins to explore what it is to be a man.
To be life-giving. To be like the sun. This is the true nature of a man.
So what do I think of women? To a man, a woman is the most beautiful thing in the world. She is the key to unlocking his potential for he was born to be.
Practically speaking, why are there women at all? They are biologically designed and optimized toward one specialty above al

To be honest, I'm repulsed by 3dpd. I I detest women. I don't want them near my hobbies, they destroy and invert it, distorting it that it might instead 'carter' to them. I don't talk to them, I don't look at them, I don't help them, I don't do anything involving them. I don't understand why a need for women exists. I don't consider them the same species.
Reflecting on all my hobbies, no matter what: 
The device I'm using was made by men, the food I eat is farmed by men - alright, you know, let's cut this down already, put a pin on it, since it's obvious it's all men as far as fundamentals go.
What about entertainment, what about how I pass time? Yeah, returning to the question.
My games are programmed by men. 
I don't watch anything, so female actors aren't there. I listen to music, sure, mostly just instrumental, all composed by men. I don't like anime - just read books; source material, manga or the like, created by men, categorized as to be consumed by men in all the markets I've perused, and generally appreciated, discussed, uniquely by men. Sometimes they'll have complementing illustrations, and these... are done, are drawn, by men. 
The sexual fantasies, that is, the games and media through which they're enacted, are likewise exclusively created by men. Hentai games, hentai books, hentai comics, hentai animation, hentai character designs... it's all men. They're the ones designing them, they're the ones pioneering them, they're the ones spending time on them, and again, it's mostly men consuming it.
Socially speaking, I discuss on chatrooms, of which within them are a female presence at 0%. I discuss only with men. All my discourse and fun times I've had in this, I've had them through men.
In fact, I went to an all-boys school, all my life under the tutelage of only male instructors.

So,
Whenever I see something is marketed for women, I leave. 
Whenever there's a women in proximity, I keep my distance. Should they get closer, I leave.
Whenever something is created for women, or influenced by women, or created by a woman, I abandon it. Just leave it be.
Whenever there's any attention from a woman, I had to rapidly shut it down. It's often when you start working.

>>4763
>manga or the like, created by men, categorized as to be consumed by men in all the markets I've perused
>Hentai games, hentai books, hentai comics, hentai animation, hentai character designs... it's all men.
Well, just saying, but I noticed that it's not uncommon for manga and hentai targeted at men to be actually made by women.
And... this may be the only instance of women doing anything beneficial.

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Women in my experience are nice and generally better friends than guys. a lot of guys are genuine dicks towards me for reasons I don't understand or simply out of my control.
I noticed a trend in guys just being genuinely being nicer is that we share similar interests rather than just games only.

I have a lisp and typically I am quiet unless given time to warm up to them and an topic I am interested in.

>>4764
You wouldn't believe it, but in many Chinese, JP, and Korean boards I was browsing, the users were truly pissed off at this, insistent that women should stay making their shit for other women, as it would amount only to a waste of time for men, and to comply with the natural divisions (they're quite critical of rules - what is for men should be made by men and nothing against men should be involved in it. That's how their industries work, it's split by sex, utterly unthinkable in the gynocentric female worshiping west ). They were more supportive of men being exclusively the only ones at the helm for male-products than I could ever be.
Now, women who'd try to 'appeal'  (create) to men, and launch a product from the foundation of channels dominated by men, were addressed as primarily whores, parasites and people who should fuck off. I agree there. It never helped that always, they'd coat their works (as fabricated to be 'by men' under a false male-pseudonym) as anti-otaku, and screech against fan service, calling for its shut-down, like the retard who enters a thread full of things he hates, to then proceed in causing a ruckus about its very content.
Their disgusting paneling produced from poor spatial IQ, their pathetic stories full of NTR or otherwise boring, their art unable to escape looking like shit- it's all unnecessary, and always a waste of time compared to that which is made by man, who can embody

i'll start.

i feel sick when i think about how many people just subsume your ideas with little conscious thought.

i dont know why, but it makes me feel sick for some reason. the ability to think critically is highly important - not the ability to mindlessly follow trends.

>>4579
because
in the end, its not just about having the right ideas in the first place. if you just assume something to be true, simply because it's popular, you open up more space for inauthenticity and inauthentic people

Onces in a flight from Germany to japan they fed me something they called a cheese sandwich, it was so bad i still feel sick just thinking about it

>>4736
Eunuch was a retarded cucknadian tranny but he did made me laugh at some point.

>>4726
What's the term for nostalgia for petty events or objectively bad times, grasping at what amount to crumbs of stimuli in relation to a mind that is decaying from inertia. Because I miss those people as much as I miss walking home from school or some other mundanity.

I stumbled on a pretty interesting article on prehistorical societies:
https://www.theintrinsicperspective.com/p/the-gossip-trap

An excerpt that stood out to me:
>It may even be that money, rather than being invented to keep track of trade relationships or debts for private property, was invented to keep track of social relationships instead. For example, consider again the Yurok, who inhabited the northwestern corner of California, and note that
>>the Yurok were famous for the central role that money—which took the form of white dentalium shells arranged on strings, and headbands made of bright red woodpecker scalps—played in every aspect of their social lives.
>The most famous of this sort of “money,” wampum, was not originally used by indigenous Americans as something that could be settled for goods or services, like the way we understand money now, or the way it became once European settlers arrived. Instead, according to the Davids, wampum “largely existed for political purposes,” i.e., to keep track of social capital, not material capital. Even private property itself might have been only an extension of social relations.

And:
>But it never seems to strike Dunbar or others that living under a dominio

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I'm balding, I started having acne and apparently I've developed allergies. All at almost 30 years of age.

Meanwhile I open linkedin (not even sure why the fuck I do it, clearly I'm beyond retarded) and I get people from high school adding me, despite me trying to avoid them as hard as I could all of these years. It's reminding me how I let those shitty teenage years dictate most of my 20s, and how I still have an inferiority complex because I was a neet for 7 years while much of my class did quite well for itself.

I guess some people just have to be the bad guys so society can stabilize around mutual hatred for them. Sometimes it just gets tiring to constantly feel like a clay golem lacking something fundamental to being human.

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>>4195
Can you take this somewhere else? If the guy doesn't care about you then he's not going to care about this, either.

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Can someone tell me what is happening here? Am I having a normalnigger encounter in the normalnigger encounter thread? I might be retarded but all I can glean from this is that two degenerates were dating and then one felt spurned by the other and is sharing info about the person who spurned him/her, but I'm not even sure about that because >>4178 seems to imply that the info was posted on this board and I haven't seen anything like that (maybe I just haven't paid attention or the posts were deleted). If you shared info with someone then that is now info that is not in your hands, if you expected anything different to happen then you are a retard and posting like it's the end of the world won't change the fact that you are retarded. To be clear though whoever you two are you should both just leave this board and never come back. Especially the girl, whichever one of you that is, or especially both of you if you are faggots, which I can't fucking tell because you did the young normalnigger thing of saying "they" when you know someone's gender.
>>4162
>i don't care i just wanted sex
This is a particularly disgusting sentence, you should really consider killing yourself after you type a thing like that out, regardless of whatever the gay shit is behind the scenes.

>>4197
I am not sure, it looks like it's some kind of weird trolling but it can be some deranged normalnigger who somehow sumbled into this place. Sad thing is that he is not even as funny as the esoteric schizo.

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When I see the way normalfags opine about socialization or how they treat each other, I feel gratitude for being born an antisocial asshole. They're incredibly self-centered and fine with climbing over each other up the totem pole, but the autistic recluses who post mean comments online and barely ever go outside (and therefore aren't even participating in the rat race) are a threat to civilization or something. Every interaction with them is a battle of egos. Even worse: they lack principles. To them, anything is permissible depending on the social status of the subject. I'm not allowed to stick them with a spear or cave their face in with a rock when they try to solicit something out of and grow uppity with me anymore, so I'd rather avoid the headache and keep to myself. They can cannibalize each other to their hearts' content.

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>>4756
You call yourself an asshole, antisocial, autistic, a recluse, yet you appear to have rationality and values. Don't let normalniggers pick your words and fool you into thinking there's something wrong with you when you were born into a failed culture and society. Are you sure your autism isn't just stress? A real recluse wouldn't use imageboards. The term antisocial is associated with criminality and violence. An asshole would be hurting others in order to climb the social ladder. If you tell a normalnigger you're autistic or oppose society, they'll make you out to be a terrorist and report you. They spin it to make it sound like you don't just wish society was better.

I'm tired of having to work to support myself. I play the lottery every week. It's quite cheap here. But I could win more than 1M when there is enough accumulated money.

>>4749
>I play the lottery every week
They call it "the idiot tax" for a reason, bub.

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>>4706
>namefaggotry
>pedofaggotry
not surprised

i love anonymous communities but this type of autistic, power hungry nerd never fails to decrease my faith in humanity a bit further everytime

>>4706
I got banned off digi for making a joke

>>4750
I never claimed I am smart.

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What's the smallest resolution a wallpaper can be as of this year?

>>3943
Best.

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>>4640
I'm not the anon that you're replying to, but I don't think industrialization was necessarily a mistake, the problem is that both capitalists and communists used technology and industrialism to completely enslave and domesticate not just the White race but Mankind as a whole. Kaczynski was right when he wrote that the consequences of the industrial revolution have been disastrous, but the solution is neither luddism nor pushing ahead towards a fully automated world, but instead applying automation only to certain specific areas of human life, while removing it from other areas.

Luddism is as degenerate as transhumanism. Transhumanism is degenerate because it is anti-human and anti-Spirit, luddism degerate because its anti-science and anti-progress. The words 'progress' and 'science' now evoke in our minds images of completely dysgenic, low-T nu-males known as 'soyboys', all thanks to liberalism. But make no mistake, real science and real progressivism are not jewish liberal values, but Aryan in their very core. Unfortunately, both science and progressivism have been hijacked by jews, subhumans, cacodaemons and succubi/incubi.

Technology and industry are not the banes of the Aryan race and Mankind but instead massive boons, when applied properly in an healthy, eugenic and sustainable way. Think about it, would so many people be redpilled about not only the jews but the nature of the world we live if it were not for the technology and industry that made the propagation, dissemination and accessibility of this information possible? Of course it wouldn't! This alone is proof that technology and industry are not forces of evil, but instead forces of good. It's the forces of evil that enslaved Mankind to industry, not industrialism itself.

If luddites get their way, it will be a greater disaster to the Aryan race and the rest of mankind than the consequences of the industrial revolution, because it will be the loss of nearly everything that the finest men that were ever born have worked for.

>Communism and Capitalism represent a distorted monstrous abomination, a Hydra, that shares the goals of Islam, absolute servitude to the Demiurge manifest either as wage slavery of Capitalism, state slavery of Communism or spiritual slavery of Islam (the very name, Islam, means submission). 
-Kalki Jugend, anonymous.

>Only Hitlerism truly sets us free, because only Hitlerism announces the same spirit of absolute meritocratic hierarchical aristocracy which our most heroic forebears, the Greeks, Romans, Celts, Germans and Nordics, naturally espoused (we face ourselves as Hyperboreans).
>This is how one can say: National Socialism is the truth of nature. There is no need to imagine a truly Traditionalist-Futurist vision for the future, because it was put into lively practice by the Third Reich: an absolute fusion of hyper-occult post-industrial supra technology with an ultra-traditional, agrarian ruralism devoted entirely to healthy feudalist living on the earth, with the far flung goal of conquering the stars, in the Cosmic Reich, not at the expense of the flora and fauna of this planet.
-Kalki Jugend, anonymous.

Yeah, most of the time i think it's over for all of us

>>4645
My little addendum is that going innawoods to build a bunker cabin with some friends to weather the apocalypse is the right-wing version of I Love Science leftists thinking space travel will improve and benefit mankind, there is no escaping something like a civil war or full-scale invasion. You either win, or get yourself and loved ones castrated before being sent to slave in a gulag.

>>4431 (OP) 
I AM OZYMANDIAS, KING OF KINGS
GAZE UPON MY WORKS, YE MIGHTY, AND DESPAIR
>nothing beside remains

Ask me in 10,000 years if it mattered.

>>4733
hi OZYMANDIAS, I'm Dad

>>4569 (OP) 
>Are you guys still robots?
I'm still a friendless KHHV who's never been in a relationship, has horrible anxiety, is on the autism spectrum and has a long list of health problems (many undiagnosed), and still is strongly dependent on his parents. Still, I don't think I fully qualify as a robot anymore because I recently moved forward in my career. That said, I had to fight for it a lot more than normalfags do, and staying at the entry level would have destroyed my health in the long run.

>>4569 (OP) 
Still a robot, yeah.  Socialization for me is draining. I have to force myself to do it, it's unnatural.
Still suffering.
Relationships (besides family who care about you) are people exploiting each other.  Someone in the relationship is always left holding the bag.

>>4572
Is it violent to swat a fly? You usually don't wish ill on a pest - you just want him to be anywhere but where you are.
I was in the same boat as you. Thought that being passive would get people to leave me alone. But all you're doing is being weak, letting them in to mess around with you whatever way they like.
It's a fact of life - sometimes you need your hands to explain in a way that words can't.

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>>4612
>Is it violent to swat a fly? You usually don't wish ill on a pest - you just want him to be anywhere but where you are.
>all you're doing is being weak, letting them in to mess around with you whatever way they like.
>It's a fact of life - sometimes you need your hands to explain in a way that words can't.
You are correct, this is a fact of life because normalniggers, especially subhuman normalniggers, operate on animal instincts and logic, and the only way to get an animal that's pestering you to leave you alone is to show that you braver and stronger than it. I have experienced it myself
>be me, trying to sleep
>subhuman normalnigger being a noisy cunt in front of my house by preaching with a microphone to a bunch of drunkards, who are all ignoring him.
>go outside, forcefully disable his sound system and tell him that if he keeps this shit up, I have nothing to lose in life so I will just kill him.
>drunkard suddenly cares about this noisy normalnigger, tells me if I don't leave the preacher alone, I will get shot
>I attack the drunkard with the wooden stick I was holding as soon as he finishes his sentence for daring to threaten me
>drunkard knees me in the face, causes a nose bleed but doesn't break it
>his knee also failed to knock me out because I had my teeth clenched before I attacked
>other drunkards unfortunately stop the fight just when I was about to attack him again
>police comes but doesn't do shit to me because I'm considered medically insane.
>community leader later arrives at my house and says the drunkard came up to her crying because my stick bruised his chest

>>4644
Amazing. They are truly subhumans. Well done anon.