/r9k/ - robot9000

>>4741
>where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. 
Accepting ones own ineptitude is the first step to betterment. How long did I wallow in my false sense of superiority without making any progress? I wasted so many oppertunities, so much time! But wallowing in past regrets is no good either.
Honestly, in the end, no matter how depraved my adolescence has been, I think it was worth the ride.
I made a very good internet friend in the process and am already making plans of traveling to moscow by car next year. For the first time in many years I have things to look forward to again.
>I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.
Took me long enough to figure that out. All this time I didn't even know who I was. I was just an almagation of post post post ironic internet tropes.

I hope you find your purpose too, anon.
Pessimism is never the answer, blind optimism neither. I think one has to find a healthy balance between the two. Maybe just call it realism.

>>4742
I don't regret anything about my childhood despite how mediocre it was, it was a journey to understanding the truth and believing the voices in my head and feelings in my gut to where I got as a teen. But I've gotten some nigh irreversible health issues because of what I went through as a teen, so if it gets to that point then something is clearly wrong and you're just accepting the facts and lessons of life at that point. Is that even an uncommon feeling?

I still feel like a child, for me no amount of driving and maintaining internet friendships will fix that for me. I don't know what feeling good and finding meaning is. This is the loneliest and most hopeless I've ever been. I want to warn younger people about how little my struggles in coming of age mattered, and how they can cripple you, and what I thought I really wanted.

Sorry if this is too sappy or heavy-handed.

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>>4530

>>1158
>later
>2022+
Aged like milk.

>>5190
Narcissism.

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Not a fitting song for him but I chose this overlay (years ago) in tribute to the anon from the shitty life conditions thread.

The best music can be found in a rainy forest. Keep your phone at home.

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I am the zombie.

https://youtu.be/-lYUfuIJjkY

>>5207
Sometimes ??? Always for me, anon.

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https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-guide/cognitive-restructuring

> I'm an overthinker > overthinking bad > I'm a bad person > depression

< "overthinking" is a superpower < what "overthinking" anyway? how does one measure the proper amount of thinking and who decided this standard? < fuck that shit bro I'm a sick cunt of a post-processor and bottom-up thinker

>>5210
>the rapist aid
what kind of aid could a rapist provide?

>>5212
Could be an educational experience. Or a lot of fun if you're into that, I won't yuck your yum.

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Now you know not to do that.

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awwww yee

>>5203
damn, he really did put the brownies next to the hot cocoa. I've never done that.

>>5203
/soc/aroo tryhards also capped that thread in a sense
https://files.catbox.moe/k4whvq.mp4

how many years has it been

>>5214
2026 - 2015

>>5215 (OP) 
normalniggers are extremely, and I want to stress, EXTREMELY susceptible to thermobaric weapons. they HATE it when you drop a bumch of AGM-114 Hellfire rain on their simple minded heads lol. make of this knowledge what you will if you want to produce some lulzy mischief.

>>5189
>Iryna Zablablabla
Stopped reading there, nadsee larpers leave the hall.

>>5189
The USA was made by running away. Now it has the strongest military and won against Nazi Germany before it was the strongest AND stole Germany's nuclear scientists. History has taught us that moral behavior never works out, of which, the USA got unethical over time due to that, virtues holding them down from being a tyranical overlord. You can say man up and take responsiblity all day but in reality the empowered are limp wristed men that were born rich, and their ancestors made sure they'd be rich due to runing away from their previous nations, and when not the USA they stayed rich by NOT going to war as the rich never do go, and most battles worth fighting are impossible to win when you are a foot soldier in modern times, such as if you are a freedom fighter trying to resist the Americunt police. Only a fool would attempt to do it when they can simply just move away, assuming the USA even allows the moving. Often enough bad nations ban moving away and in the USA 2 million people are considered potential terrorists and also the USA milisharty has admitted to killing it's own citizens without trail on foreign soil, so can you even move is the real issue here rather than an issue of 'runinng away from your problems. Saying you can't run away from your problems is abusive  nigger behavior, stop being a nigger. Why don't niggers go to Africa if they hate whites and getting arrested over law breaking so much? Be

>>5191
Malice.
>>5195
Insanity.

>>5196
Every woman already has her very own bleeding vagina. She doesn't need YOU, or anyone else, to be another weepy hole.

Man up.

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>>5191
lurk more newfag

>>5195
the USA was made by a cabal of Freemasons and now its a 56% (And this number is severely outdated by now probably as it keeps decreasing every year) white country that its importing a gadzillion poojeets to save the GDP and getting into brushfire conflicts in the middle east on behalf of its Jewish Lobby

it is also notable that the US despite having 2nd Amendment rights and a "Frontier" Mentality they let a bunch of snot-nosed kids from the National Guard walk all over them and enforce desegregation, this was in the 50´s and 60´s barely not even 20 years after the end of World War 2, the same "Gung Ho" americans that were jerking off over how many Nuhtzees they were going to kill and how many japs were they going to skin alive immediately kow-towed to authority once their behavior was no longer enforced by that same authority

i don´t know what Ukroanon is going to do or wether he is actually in any danger at all but coaxing people into leaving their own country for the faux hope to make it to the US wich is in a objectively worse state than any European country (and the cause of every European country being in the state that they are) is Malicious at worst and Stupid at best

in general i don´t think anyone should tkae any advice from the internet because it is taking advice from literal nobodies + if the advice 

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Imagine being lonely when you can talk to yourself inside your head all day long! Embrace maladaptive daydreaming, meditate your tulpa (hallucinated splinter of your subconscious) into pseudoreality, lrn2/gnosticism and kabbalism like our trillionaire technocrat oligarchs do, get a boring but well-paying career that doesn't distract you from what's really important because of minimal social bullshit (like plumber or road construction, mindless and physical) so you can hand control of your mind to mushrooms or whatever as you weren't doing anything worthwhile with it anyway so sit in the psychonaut passenger seat and surf the kali yuga neveralone as an army of none.

Would love to talk about my problems. I really would. But now I can't! Because the correct clinical terminology is tHeRaPy sPeAk all of a sudden! Thanks, TikTok and Twitter, as if I didn't have a hard enough time being taken seriously or even acknowledged that I have "real problems" in the first place.

Worst part is not being alone, is being with people for a while then still being alone.

I'm mostly alone but sometimes, each 3-4 months I do some stuff with some random people.
But I still feel like there is no connection, I talk, I remember some names, change some stories and that's it, I never keep contact, no one never send me some message or something. Even the few ancient friends of mine I talk like once or twice a year. I can keep real life conversations for a while but it ends fast after that.
I think I found four or five people that I really clicked. Shared same interests, never got in fights, got some common interests, morals and stuff but in the end we quickly part ways and never be seen again.
Maybe some day I will change this, I hope.

>>5192
>the correct clinical terminology is tHeRaPy sPeAk all of a sudden! Thanks, TikTok and Twitter, as if I didn't have a hard enough time being taken seriously or even acknowledged that I have "real problems" in the first place.
I don't know if I surf the normal fag wave and try to use these new stuff as excuses for my problems, but I really don't want to get near the people that goes identifying them as "neuro divergent" or some mental disease. Being alone is a curse but at the same time a blessing.

>>5167
How is pic related better than listening to podcasts?

>>5194
>podcast
No thank you, I already have enough annoying voices in my head.

>>5165
Surely you meant to link >>5126

Are you implying someone needs a redirect rather than copy /watch onwards and then paste it into the end of a normal invidious url to see a vid? I should not have to do it is all. If you're going to hotlink jewtube then oldfags will bitch about it. We always did. It's enabling. My fixing other people's mistakes is enabling because the next generation won't know it's bad to click. Complaining about things is a good thing. It's educational.

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>>5170
>imblyign
Stopped reading there. Talk like an adult, not a KnowYourMeme copy-paster.

>>5174
It's just a typo. An android tablet's firefox has no spellcheck to underline my brain farts when I type too quickly. b's and p's and d's and b's often glitch in the human brain you realize. Everything is a spectrum so this makes me have micro-dyslexia but also other issues can happen. You are IMPLYING/insinuating that someone having typos basically makes them a hyper-newfag? Whether I'm brained damaged or not you're still being retarded here. 
>reread my post to see what it was even about
>it was not even a typo
KYS; people fumble the word insinuation and or insinuating far too often to not want to type out implication/implying. When a legal faggot or cop says 'implicated in a crime' do you chimp out at that too or is it just hard enough to type that it appeases your industrial grade autism?

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>brained damage

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>>5178